My writing is a mere reflection of where I am in my spiritual life. I am struggling hard with God. I often quote the edgy Meister Eckhart quote to reflect where I am as well, “I pray God to rid me of God.” I must find God. I must be found by God or my soul will dry up. I am a thirsting deer pining for the waters of life.
I am a creature of habit, drawn more to my darker leanings when God seems far away. God becomes an idol of conditionality when I am in this space; God becomes a schizophrenic. But then the tug pulls from within, reminding me that God is greater than my feelings, greater than my mind, far beyond any conceptualization I can concoct. It is then that I am reminded of the greatest truth:
God. Is. Love.
Plain and simple. And it really is plain and simple and profound and unutterable. It is so simple children get it. It is so simple adults are threatened by it so much so we create dogma, doctrines, denominations and diatribes to control the very essence and definition of God’s love. But God’s love is and will forever be just that – Love.
We can do as we wish to this sacred Fire called Love. We can qualify it. We can quantify it. We can try and control it through the above mentioned ways. We can try and block it. We can try and commodify it. But God’s love is, well, uncontrollable, indescribable and unconditional. And that scares the bejesus out of us.
We humans are so afraid of the utter brilliance and intensity of divine Love that we have to both qualify it and then quantify it. We cannot truly believe God’s love is unconditional, as in absolutely unconditional, that we need to establish temporal conditions to that which is Unconditional.
What would happen if all of us who say we ‘love God’ simplified our lives and missions towards one direction – Love – and sought only to give and receive divine love freely without discretion?
What if all other dogma, doctrine and denomination burnt away as the dross that it is, and only God’s unconditional love reigned supreme in every being created by this Loving God?
What would happen?
Now that is one revolution I want to see and be a part.
If the construct of my life, my beliefs, my mission and motive grasp deeply that Divine Love is not a doctrine, or a sect, a rule or a religion then the revolution has begun. And the revolution starts, ends and is sustained by God so there is nothing to lose and surrender is the key. The revolution states that God’s love is a Reality, a Being, a very Presence pure and undefiled in its natural (divine) state.
But if the truth be told, I cannot handle that Truth, so I have to place conditions on Divine Love, on God and Jesus. I have to establish codes for this love because I am afraid of what will happen to me, my world and my entire being if this Love actually came and consumed everything.
I often wonder what exactly would happen if we could understand Teilhard de Chardin’s urging to discover Divine Love and thereby ‘rediscover’ Fire again and light up the world.
I am being held by the simple truth that Divine Love is just that, divine, and no human language or doctrine or dogma should ever try and tame such perfect wildness, such holy fire, as the love of God.